the day i bought the Sufjan Stevens album, it all comes out...

When something good hits, i try to get ahead of myself. Figure it out, so it will get better. I try to keep it going, like i have no faith in God whatsoever. I lose site in things and when i realize it, it can actually be quite funny. (when you see me in my room laughing at myself, that could be why. it happens.)

 It's so freeing to know that you don't have to have it all together. You don't need to know the formula of how love happens or of how to get a boyfriend or a best friend. You don't need to know at what exact minute your going to call... or anything. I cant just sit. How cool! Things will happen when they are supposed to happen and when they don't happen it means they aren't supposed too. When something good comes along but then fades away, something better will come. And if your tired of waiting, keep waiting. It will be worth waiting for. And when something good does come along and stays there, keep it. Hold on to it, give it time and positive energy. Don't be like me and put up a stubborn wall (a good reason why i ruin a lot of good things.) Give it a little faith, and if it works, great! If it doesn't, keep waiting. You go through everything for a reason and sometimes going through heartbreak after heartbreak and boy after boy gets frusterating and confusing. (Well actually, all the time it does.)  All i can say is that i KNOW God has a plan. And it's not to make you feel sad and lonely. Gods plan will always prevail. That that is very comforting to me.

^^^ i've noticed that when i write blogs, or songs, or poems or anything i always use the term "you" like i'm talking to someone but in reality i'm just talking to myself. I deal with all of this. This isn't a therapy apointment for someone else. 

lots and lots of lovvinnngg :)

were all in this together

i love love. especially when its given from God. I love blessings. especially when its given from God. I love sunny days and a cool breeze. i love phone dates and best friends. i love getting out of school at 12:15. Im loving jack johnson at this moment; and owl city. I love life. And most of all, i love when we realize how small we are and once we get past our complications we are simple one bodied human beings. Were all here together, to be with each other. I love just living day by day and constantly i need to be reminded not to get stressed on the future. I always seem to do that. One of the best things that has happened to me this year has been joining the worship band at Calvary. I have met so many amazing people from it. I have learned so much and it has helped me with my voice. God totally has a plan. HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!  i wish people could just understand my happiness and not think im fake. I'm just a girl trying to live a simple life and not get caught up in things that dont matter. I have the love of Jesus in me and its the most amazing and freeing feeling in the world. I just wanna love love love love and laugh and dance, lots of dancing. 

:)

simple as it should be

I truly think that instead of reading this right now, you should go outside and listen to the birds. They make me laugh, their music is so peaceful and wonderful. I hope i go to the beach today. I need it. Oh, how i love my life. 

thats all for now. I needed to write a blog but i didnt know what i would say so i guess this is all i got. 

OH and if you have any clothes you would like to get rid of, please tell me. I am going to the OC rescue mission next friday to give them clothes and hygiene stufff.

love you.

im coming back!

hiii anyone who reads my blog. which is probably no one. im coming back to blogger! its so much easier and better to use and stupid wordpress wont let me sign in. i havent blogged in about a month and i miss it alot. i feel like im a completely different person now which is amazing. im not the girl that i was in september, starting highschool, a bestfriend, and a good student. now i am hating school, loving jesus, and a terrible student. but honestly im happier now than ever and i know that God is directing my on the right path. Life is bad, but God is good and he will make your life amazing if you just let him.

last night i had an amazing night with a good friend. we sat and talked for three hours in a freezing park. we looked at the sky and dreamed of how the world should be. we laughed and almot cried together. it was how things are supposed to be. simple simple simple.

loving Jesus loving life loving YOU.