look at us now

People say time heals all things. But with time, i get more frustrated. I'm tired of judging someone upon their potential and not who they actually are. I always end up dissapointed. Everything is so confusing and i don't know where my next step should be. I guess thats just life though, your not supposed to worry about your next step. Just go. Don't worry about the future, just focus on the present. Count your blessings and invest in those who deserve it. I want to show love to everyone but its so hard when someone hurts you so much. So much that you don't even know the effects of it until it actually hits. I wonder if its even gone into his mind, i wonder if he ever even cared. I wonder if he'll do anything to fix it. But, it doesn't matter, time keeps coming. I gotta get caught up with it.

:)

A Dream For Joy

for about two months now, i have been in a slump. i've been depressed, discontent, and irritated. I wasn't close with God or the people that meant the most to me. 

all i can say is that i am on the road to recovery. i am free, i feel free. i feel joyful, finally

:)

uncertainty can be a wonderful thing :)

This break has been nothing short of surprising. If i had to plan out how i thought it would go, my life would not fit. But, its an amazing thing. I could cry right now with how happy i am with how God is changing me. I am nothing like i was even just three months ago. I'm learning to just let go, let loose, and let live. After all those blogs about it, i'm FINALLY learning how to accept and love imperfectness, i knew i would :)  And last but not least, i'm learning to live in the moment, not worry about tomorrow. I learned that there will always be tomorrow and new possibilities, and that brings me so much peace. I'm learning that being depressed isn't always bad. Sometimes we need to go through terrible times, because that paves the way to our good times. Anger can be a good thing. Frustration is unavoidable; but when you make an effort to let go and just enjoy the ride, love will always come back into your life. So just hang on, get a good grip and don't let go, it too will pass :)

liven' in loveeee,

lo