as im growing, im learning that i cant think in extremes. im very openminded and gray in some areas but when it comes to conflict or situations i always think black and white. its like gray isnt capable when after i think about it, i am very wrong. but im seeing that it needs to be changed so thats a first good step right?

i need to learn to just let go and chill. i cant please everyone, i cant do everything, some things are just meant to be the way they are. i cant change the people i like and why. i cant change that sometimes i make dumb mistakes and most likely end up getting hurt. i cant change my past relationships and how just one guy can completely break me. i cant change i cant change i cant change. well if i cant change that, then why am i trying? why am i trying to forget about these things and pretend like it never happened. will that help me get over it?

when something big happens in my life i store it away with encouraging thoughts and buzyness. i try to just forget about it and move on. but those things have molded me, they've made me who i am today, i cant forget where i came from.

i leave you with one last thing.
theres no such thing as perfection.