everything is meaninglesss

i love ecclesiastes. i don't think i can even express my thank you's enough to whoever wrote that amazing book. it has taught me so much. it has opened up my mind and showed me how i was so lagnarent (my new word)...

God wants us to have love, he wants us to be happy in this short life of ours. He's not some huge king who says you have to only be with me all the time to be a good christian. he wants us to have friends, family, love. he's happy for you. this is such a simple concept but it means so much to me. its like how could i not have known this??!

i've spent alot of time healing and trying to find myself and learn to love God more. and i feel like ive come along way. im here and im happy with myself. i feel so blessed to be given this life.  i know that there will always be more pain and more suffering but for right now, i need to live for the moment and live in my peace and happiness.

time is so short, before you know it we'll all grow old and die. so we need to live this meaningless life right. if our life is meaningless then why do we spend so much time doing things that dont matter? its crazy. thats all i can say. i wanna hear your thoughts on this...

"Be happy young man, while you are young, and let your heart give you jot in the days of your youth. Follow the ways of your heart and whatever you see, but know that for all these things God will bring you judgement. So then banish anxiety from you heart and cast off the troubles of your body, for youth and vigor are meaningless."

Ecclesiastes 11 9-10

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