i feel like i am learning and loving so much more these days. it's seem to all be coming together and sometimes that scares me. i had a really rough two years and now that things seem to be going right im scared that there bound to go wrong. i'm so used to everything working out wrong that i give up before i give something the chance to work out right. i'm becoming much more wiser then to do that, to give up. i'm determined not to. i'm so excited about so many things. im loving the company and family thats surrounding me right now. my great grandma is in town. she just sits all day and does things like 'her exercises" and my laundry. she hits and watches the sun and clouds. she is content. sometimes i envy that but then i realize that if i was idle and did nothing all day, everyday then i would go crazy. but see thats the beauty of it. she is content. she has lived a good life full of adventures and business. she now enjoys sitting and thinking and talking and living. what a simple concept. i wish we could all be content to easily...
our society depends on material items, people, entertainment, and for me, emotions to make them happy. when really we should depend on no one but God. he is the one that were looking for. he is the one that gives you joy in little things. he is the one that makes us content with little things. i want to be like that.. i want to simplify.
"The biggest thing ive learned in life is contentment. i dont need anything else in life. i am happy with whatever or wherever i am and i hope you can learn that someday..."
- Grandma Winnie
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